Day 41: The worst thing you can do for UC

I’m sorry I skipped this post last night. We got home late from a gig at a bar in Hout Bay, and I was feeling yukky and tired.

The whole week I’ve been having cramps and discomfort in my stomach/colon, which means that for most of the day yesterday, I was stressing about whether I’m about to have another flare. know how bad it is to stress about this. You know it too. Why do we do it??

Selfie of me at the bar last night

Selfie of me at the bar last night

I kept trying to talk myself down but by the time we got to the bar last night, and my tight, gassy, noisy belly was making me long for my bed, I was convinced. This really is completely counterproductive and one of the worst things you can do for UC. Talk yourself OUT of flares, not into them!

Exactly how it feels

Exactly how it feels

Luckily, we came home, I spent some QT in the loo, had a long hot shower, and felt loads better. It’s not in the least surprising that after the week I’d had, my belly would be unhappy. Add to that the fact that I ate a whole avo and a bunch of bananas (quite literally) before we went out, washed down with a glass or two of wine, and it is freakin clear as day why there was a riot in my belly.

PRIDE!!!

Us at Pride 2013, showing our support for our US friends before Prop8 was overturned

Us at Pride 2013, showing our support for our US friends before Prop8 was overturned

Today I feel good. In fact, I feel GREAT because it’s Pride and we’re going to march in a few hours. I really think it’s so important that we celebrate our freedom in South Africa. And it’s not just freedom to be gay. In SA, we’re have complete freedom of choice (obviously as far as your human rights don’t infringe on anyone else’s) – which means that whatever your race, religion, favourite colour or food allergy, you’re free to live the way you want. That’s not to say that there isn’t discrimination. There is. Which is of course another huge reason to hit the streets today and make a noise!

Pride 2012

Pride 2012

I’m starting the day with eggs and coffee – my favourite, though it feels like I’m someone’s grandpa! –  and I’ve bought a ton of veg to cook tomorrow for the week.

How’s your weekend going?

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Day 29: Meh. Bleh.

Those damn mushrooms! Today I don’t know how many times I went to the loo. It’s crazy how your BMs can do a 180 in such a short space of time when you have a digestive issue.

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I didn’t have full-on diarrhoea, thankfully, but multiple loose-ish stools in a single day is enough to make me start worrying. I didn’t have any more mushrooms today, and I also held back on introducing the garlic. I want my system to be completely cleared after this little setback.

I also need to try to stay calm and not stress about potential flares. If it happens, it happens. Stressing about it is totally counter-productive will only make things WORSE. I do, however, understand what people mean about retreating back to your SCD ‘safe zone’, and being scared to try new things. Right now, I feel like maybe I should just eat chicken and butternut for the rest of my life!

This is not how I envision spending the rest of my life...

This is not how I envision spending the rest of my life…

I’ve discovered venison mince (can’t remember if I mentioned) and I’m really enjoying the smoky flavour. I don’t think it’s anywhere as near as healthy as ostrich mince, but damn it tastes so much better!

Being on day 29 means I’m just one day shy of my wine. I can’t wait – though K reminded me tonight that it might not agree with me. And she’s right – it probably won’t. And that will be okay too; at least I’ll know. Then it’ll be up to me to decide whether or not to continue drinking. Basically, whether or not the pain is worth it.

That’s all I have for tonight, folks. My bubbly belly wants a shower and to get into bed. It was about a million degrees celcius in Cape Town today and we spent the afternoon drinking (water) in the sun at a popular beachfront bar/hotel for a friend’s birthday. It was gorgeous, but just waaaay too hot with zero shade. I’ll post pics of my pretty city tomorrow. Before these 90 days are out, I’ll convince you to visit!